Meal Planning on a Tight Budget

I hope you all had a great Christmas! We sure did! Ollie had a great time with all our extended family and meeting some of them for the first time! We also got to play in the snow for the first time! So fun!

Meal planning got a lot of attention in my last post! Who knew people would be so intrigued?! A lot of people asked for me to elaborate... so here we go!  Meal planning comes second nature to me. It's hard for me to explain how I do it, I just do. I don't understand how one would grocery shop without meal planning? Like, what do you buy? Serious question.

So, I decided to post about our budget and our meal plan this month! Here are a few tips on how we keep our grocery budget down.

*** We eat as healthy as our budget allows. We believe in a whole foods, organic diet... but we have caviare taste on a hot dog budget. You make it work. You do the best you can. ***

1. Shop At Aldi.
Alid's allows us to get WAY more for our money and still eat whole foods. Especially with their new Organic and Simply Nature line. It makes eating very affordable for us.

2. Minimal Fresh Fruit, Veggies, Dairy and Meat
Fresh produce is expensive. Don't get me wrong I LOVE fresh produce. Drop me in the middle of Fresh Markets organic produce section and instant relaxation. Its my happy place. I could just camp out in the sea of organic veggies.....BUT our budget does not allow for a ton of fresh produce. We replace as much fresh produce as we can with frozen. Its cheaper and does not go bad. I am allergic to dairy so the only dairy we buy is cheese and we make sure at least 50% of our meals are vegetarian. To replace buying cows milk, we buy almond milk. Almond milk has a longer shelf life than cows milk anyways. Every meal will include protein, it just might be in the form of beans which are cheap.

3. Minimal trips to the store
I used to shop for the whole month in one trip. When you are working its the easiest. Now that I am at home we go twice a month. This WILL reduce your budget. Use what you have in your home. The more trips you make to the store the more you will spend. Simple as that.


4. Get Organized
Write your meal plan, write your grocery list, and stick to it. Do not allow anything in your cart that was not written down. Use self control. Do not let promos and advertising allow you to go out of budget. I write my lists, organize them by isle/type of food, what ever works. The more organized you are the better chance you have to succeed.

5. Use Cash and Bring a Calculator
Here's where you get serious. We run a cash budget. We don't like debt. We are in debt and it sucks. Hopefully, one day we can live debt free. We are huge believers in living within your means. We pay cash for everything possible. Our goal is to have no mortgage, car payments or student loans one day. So, bring your grocery budget money in cash to the grocery store. Get our your phone or calculator and add up everything while going down the isle. When you hit your max, stop. If you don't have everything you "need" then prioritize. "Need" is such an over used term in our culture.

6. Don't Buy Pre-Packaged Food
Super expensive. Super bad for you. Don't do it.

7. Stock the Freezer Not the Fridge.
Some days you will look in our fridge and it will appear we have no food. Usually, we do, it is just all in the freezer. This takes planning but helps prevent throwing away food and wasting food. We freeze things that people don't always think of... like bread, chopped up fresh veggies (onion and peppers), tortillas, all the cheese we buy... ext. We just thaw when those items are needed.

So, thats the basics of how we make this work. Does it always work? Of course not, but we try our hardest.

This is what it looks like in real life for us:

We have a monthly budget of $200 (or $50 a week) for groceries in our home. I meal plan about 15 recipes per trip. These 15 recipes will provide at least 30 meals for us. (Not including breakfast and snacks) That makes each meal about $3.33 which is $1.66 per person. Here are the meals for this grocery trip and we can break it down a little more:

1. Cuban Rice and Beans with Rice and Avocado (v)
2. Ham and Beans with Corn Bread
3. Sloppy Joes and Homemade Chips (Pioneer Women)
4. Spaghetti  (v)
5. Broccoli Ham and Cheese Potatoes
6. Cheese Enchiladas (v)
7. Turkey Pot Pie
8. Stir Fry (v)
9. Veggie and Ham Scramble with Biscuits
10. Beef Stew (Iowa Girl Eats)
11. Tomato Soup with Grilled Cheese (v)
12. Veggies Pizza (v)
13. Penne a la Vodka (v)
14. Cheesy Taco Soup
15. Bean Burritos (v) (Homemade "refried" beans)

***(v) = vegetarian***

***Breakfast will include Oatmeal or Cereal.***

54% of our meals are vegetarian this time. Let me explain, we have leftovers that were given to us from the holidays and froze them. The left over ham and turkey will serve as additions to these meals. If it weren't for these, there would be less meat featured. So, we actually only bought hamburger meat and stew meat on this trip. We also had a TON of pinto beans and rice given to us so that helps our meals stretch a little further.

We went to Aldi's today and Spent $103.00 of our $200 budget. We will stretch it and make it last as long as possible. At least two weeks. I can get pretty creative though and sometimes make it stretch longer. Any money that we don't use in our cash grocery budget for the month gets put into savings. This is a HUGE incentive to make it last! Save where you can!

Some day when we are not on such a tight budget I want to include local meat and raw dairy to our diet. Until then, we will continue to meal plan this way.

There you go! Hope it helps! Enjoy your future meal planning :)

How we survived our first cold (Naturally)…. And O Update

First, I want to say how very, very blessed we are to have a very healthy child. We have not had to face any REAL health issues with Oliver and I know that. I am SO grateful. It is a true blessing to have a healthy child. Not a day goes by that I am not thankful for that.

That being said, it is super sad still when your little gets sick. Ollie wasn’t even THAT sick. He was congested, sneezy, watery eyes, you know, typical cold symptoms. No fever, not that I think fevers are BAD per say, but it’s just something we didn’t have to deal with. It’s just sad to watch a little baby get even a little sick! 

So, by now, you know I’m definitely from a different breed of humans. I love nutrition, REAL foods, Essential oils, natural remedies, Weston A Price diet, things that have stood the test of time. By NO means am I against modern medicine. I love that it is available but it is NOT my number one go to. It’s just not. When O got sick the first thing I did was eat raw garlic cloves, not call the doctor. Now, if he would of gotten REALLY sick, I would have called a doctor. It’s all about balance, ya know?

So, What we did to fight his first little, baby cold. I may have gone over board, but I’m a first time mommy, judge me.

1.     Breastfeed like crazy!
This comes in really handy when your kids sick! Anything I put in my body, Ollie gets. Gods perfect design.

2.     Echinacea supplements and tea

3.     Green tea

4.     Garlic tonic on Ollie’s feet while he slept

5.     Cold mist humidifier

6.      Put his crib up a little to help his breathing

7.     Lots of Vit C

8.     I ate 3 raw garlic cloves. (hello, good breath)

9.     Elderberry blend tea

10. Made sure we both got plenty of sleep, fluids and that my diet was spot on.

11. Made sure he got his probiotic everyday***

***Since we had a C-Section our Chiro recommended this probiotic for Ollie to take. He didn’t get the good bacteria from a natural birth, so we supplement with a probiotic.

Whew, we survied and it passed super quick. One day of grumps, then it was over. A little congestion left but you can tell he feels fine. Breastfeeding rocks, just saying. Little O was a champ and this cold will really help build his immune system for further illness we come across, so it was a huge blessing that he got to fight it!

Oliver Update:

Oliver is doing amazing. We had his lip tie reversed on Tuesday. It went great. We waited two months for this appointment that took 20 mins. Not. Kidding. We went in, the doctor explained his technique. (which was exactly the way I had research and decided I wanted it done) I wanted NO anesthesia, and I wanted it done with heat/laser NOT the standard scalpel. They gave him a little shot in the gum, cut that part of his lip and it was done! I held him, we went home and he never acted like it bothered him. Which is exactly why I wanted it done with the heat. It seals it immediately and should be no pain.

Eating: The lip takes about a week to heal. This was our final “solution”. I’m not sure yet if it has helped. We do have some 1 ½ hour stretches now, which are AMAZING! It feels like an eternity. Today, for the first time we went THREE hours between a feeding. It was insane. We get to play more and have fun. He is not eating as long either. That is the huge thing I notice. He is only eating for a couple mins then done. So, I think he does not have to work as hard to eat. Which is great. I am wondering if things will start to even out soon. I really do feel like it has made things easier for him though, which is all I wanted. I don’t care if he eats all the time, as long as it’s easier for him. I am just glad it is all done! Such a simple, simple, thing we had to wait so long for!

Favs of this week: He has been laughing so much. It has been so much fun. He is also working really hard on rolling from back to tummy. He talks all the time. He is just a TON of fun right now! 

Ollie is super excited for Christmas! He gets to meet two great aunts for the first time! We get to spend lots of time together with family!

We hope you all have a wonderful Christmas as well! 

Saving Money and Blessings

       
     Top Five ways we save money......


      1. Meal Plan

Meal planning is the number one way we save money. Meal planning is definitely my thing. Not to brag, but I am really good at it.  Somewhere deeply engrained in my is this amazing ability to meal plan and make grocery lists in no time flat…. What an exciting talent… lol

By meal planning I have got it down to about an average of $1.50 per meal for us. We do not waste food. Throwing away food makes me ridiculously sad. There are tons of people that need that food and I hate seeing it go to waste. We try and use all of what we buy. For example: we bought a turkey while it was on sale for thanksgiving. We used the meat for about 10 different meals, used the bones for bone broth and the dogs got the fat. Nothing went to waste.

We buy only from Aldi’s right now. We try and make everything from scratch. Processed foods are more expensive. Yes, making everything takes more time but it is SO much healthier and better for your budget.

We don’t buy much meat unless it is on sale. Meat is expensive and I would prefer to only have organic grass-fed meat so we just don’t buy it most of the time.

2. Don’t buy household cleaners

I make all of our cleaners. Pretty much vinegar, baking soda, vodka, and EVO is all I really need for ALL of our cleaners. These are cheap and I always have them on hand. They are not toxic, and really inexpensive.

I also stopped “washing” my hair about a year ago…..  I have had more compliments on my hair since I started this. I have really fallen in love with organix coconut milk shampoo SO every now and then I splurge and wash my hair.
* You can laugh, its ok *

3. Clothe Diaper/ Homemade Wipes 

We clothe Diaper. We decided on the Grovia brand and LOVE it so far. Such a money saver. Seriously. They are so easy too. If people knew how easy they were, I really think more people would do them. We have started using disposables at night though. (Quicker for our baby who has quite the temper at night)

I make our wipes. I use high quality paper towels (VIVA!!!! Shout out sister friends if your reading this) I make a mixture of water, coconut oil, and a natural bath soap. Easy! Plus, no chemicals on the booty. 

4. Call companies to reduce bills

We have recently reduced our Internet bill, trash bill, and home and car INS.  Some we switched to other companies, some we just said we were going to cancel and they reduced the monthly payment.

5. No Cable/Cut wasteful spending

      Cable is a waste of money for us. Some day maybe it wont be… but at this stage of life it is. We have Netflix, and hulu. We are good to go. Anything else you can pretty much just stream with Internet.

      Everyone has wasteful spending somewhere usually. Our weakness is eating out. We love the local Thai place and Mediterranean place down the street.  They are local so we love to support them. We just make it treat rather then a weekly occurrence.

Top 5 ways living on a small budget is a blessing.

1.  Humility

      You can’t always go out with friends, or buy what you want. Paying bills is your number one priority.  When people offer help sometimes you have to be humble and accept it. No matter how hard it is to do. Things won’t always be hard. Some day they will be better and you can offer your help to others that are going through a hard time. I have such a heart for giving now being in this situation. I can’t wait to pay it forward some day. Right now I can’t do a lot, but If I see something I can help with, I jump to it.

       2. Gratitude 

      You become thankful for the little things. Like a heater, food in the fridge, time with family. The important things. 

3.   Shows you Gods character 

      No matter what, the Lord will take care of you. It teaches you to rely fully on him not on materialistic things. I know that’s why we are in this season of life right now. The lord is teaching, moving and changing us into better people. I pray everyone has a season of life they live pay check to pay check. It has been an amazing growth experience. 

4. Teaches you to enjoy the little things 

      We cant afford traditional date nights, but we can afford Netflix and cheese its. We can afford a box of wine to enjoy every now and then. I love our simple life. 

5.  Helps you focus on relationships

We aren’t focused on all the things that can cloud your world. We are able to focus on our little family, on our relationships and enjoy each other. 

Dakota and I have agreed we NEVER want a lot of money. It would be nice to not live on SUCH a tight budget, to be able to take Oliver on vacations when we are older, stuff like that, but we never want a lot of money. We want a simple life, simple home, simple things. I would love to have enough money to bless others like we have been blessed. Someday, maybe, if not its not a big deal to us. We are blessed in other ways.

I love our little 800 sq ft house, I love our little garden out back, I love our simple little life. We are SO blessed. 

I will send you with a picture of our dear son, since I'm sure you have not seen enough of him :) 

Merry Christmas!! 

Baby O and Job Update

O Update:

Baby O is doing so great. Some things we love right now:

1.     Having our diaper change is about the most fun we have all day. We laugh and giggle… He sure does love his changing pad. Weird kid!

2.     We like to zurburt (No idea how to spell that, but you know, the vibrating with the lips thing) back at people now. I’ll make the CRAZY noise, his eyes will get huge, then he will try and do it back. It’s pretty great.

3.     We are grasping toys and bringing them to our mouth. We are not very coordinated yet, and usually end up smacking our self in the head : ( poor kid. Still working on that hand eye coordination.

4.     We love Mr. Monkey still and hanging out with daddy!

   We are very animated…. Our face tells a whole story about what we are thinking. I love the many expressions he makes.....

My favorite thing this week: The other day O woke up, looked at me and squealed.  It was the sweetest thing. He was so excited to see me. It pretty much melted my heart.

Nursing is still super challenging. Last week I was having a super rough and discouraging day. I took maybe 10 min breaks of not nursing every hour. It was rough. I was just crying out to the Lord. “I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE”. Everyone says once you get passed the first couple weeks of nursing it gets soooo much easier. Not for us. I talked to the THIRD lactation specialist who also said “Can’t believe you are still trying to do this and have been nursing that often for three months…” Well… what other option do I have?! I am in this far, It better work! I have a friend that had a huge desire to nurse and wasn’t able too. She told me about working all day to pump just the littlest amount to go along with his formula. That is super inspiring to me. I will keep doing this. Only a few more weeks until we get the lip tie looked at. I have hopes that this will really help things, but I’m scared it won’t. It is our last resort to make this “easier” and if it doesn’t, oh well. This is our story. 

After my discouraging day I got out of the house for the first time in awhile. I don’t go out a lot because it is just really hard with his nursing schedule right now. It was amazing because he went two hours between a feeding, which NEVER happens, and as I was nursing him in public a women out of nowhere said words of encouragement to me. It was a blessing. The Lord was really encouraging. We nurse a lot at home and O always scratches my back! Lol! I always feel it is his little way to say  “Be patient with me mom, I’m not very good at this” I love the reminder, and I really enjoy this season of life. It is just a season. I will miss our time so much when he is moving out of the house and starting his own life. I will never regret the days I spent sitting with him. 

( See, very animated. You can tell he is annoyed...) 

He still HATES being sat down. He just loves to do what I am doing. Baby wearing is GREAT! Still with wearing him, you can’t stand still! That’s a NO NO with O. We are always moving and looking or it is not good! The other day though, I got 30 mins where I wasn’t holding him! (That was with rotating him from Bumbo, bouncy, and swing every 5 mins, but still!!!) I got the dishes done and folded some laundry!! Amazing! He gets bored really easy…. What will he be like as a toddler?!?!

He still refuses to nap unless I am holding him or lying with him. He has like this 6^th sense where he KNOWS as SOON as I leave the room….. Creepy! As soon as I get up to leave he opens his eyes and stares at me….. If I keep walking he screams bloody murder. So, we “nap” together.

(muahahhaha my favorite face O has made so far)

I was reading one of my favorite bloggers today who was talking about her son’s schedule. He is a month older then O. He took FOUR separate naps during the day, in his room, played for an hour on the floor ALONE, and was asleep by 7, and only gets up once or twice…… that was a hard day for him she said… Wowzers……. What I would do with just ONE nap time!!!! It’s all about perspective, right?! 

Job Update:

We officially set the job search/ time to get serious date. It begins this weekend. Kot is taking O for a little bit so I can work on my application. Prayers would be appreciated. I’m super emotional about leaving O. I worry about him not having one of his parents around to raise him. I know parents do it all the time and do an amazing job. I just can’t get a good “idea” of what this will look like. I don’t know how to work and be a mom. It is definitely unknown territory. My mom always stayed home with us.  That’s the picture of a mom that I have in my mind. I don’t know how to change the way I think to picture a working mom… (If that makes any sense) I am just super nervous about it. Prayers PLEASE! Also, somehow I have to find time to run at least 5 times a weeks. Which, from reading about our schedule above, you can see is a huge challenge. God is bigger than this circumstance though! Financial something has to change quickly…… It is a constant worry and stress in our home. Dakota works sun up to sun down, plus some, and weekends. He doesn’t get to see Ollie very much. Sometimes just 30 mins a day. He leaves before O gets up and gets home around bed time. I know it is hard on him. Hopefully something will change soon….and mathematically we shouldn't be able to pay our bills…. Somehow the Lord always provides just enough. Which is all we need…..

(Daddy photo bomb)

Things are going great though!!! Yet, change is on the horizon …. I am just like my daddy and HATE change. Praying the Lord will bring peace. 

(Go Broncos)

Almost 3 Months

My sweet little boy will be three months this Sunday. Three freaking months. This is crazy to me. We are slowly getting to know each other better and better. Each day I wake up thankful to be able to spend that day bonding with my little boy. Oh, how I enjoy my days with him.

Some new milestones are:

1.     We are starting to roll over from tummy to back!!

2.     We love Mr. Monkey (aka little sock money blanket)

3.     We are starting to laugh and giggle at things. (especially when mommy yawns)

4.     We are starting to be able to be set down for short periods of time in our bouncy seat, where we like to kick our legs as hard as possible to shake the whole bouncy seat.

5.     We are starting to scoot away when having our diaper change, with a huge smile on our face.

He is constantly changing. He has taught me/teaching me to expect the unexpected. My last post I talked about how at least nighttime was  “easy” for us. (Easy as in a parenting sense) Well, we have been struggling now. Dakota was doing bedtime. It was their time to bond. It was my time to do something for me. So, usually, shower. Now, Dakota gives him a bottle, O finishes the said bottle, and then screams. Screams like he is being tortured until I come nurse him for about 10 secs then he falls asleep. Crazy baby. He has been getting up more lately. We really cant be dealing with teething yet, right?! I think, wrong…..he is drooling, the crankiness, the chewing on our entire fist until we gag, the not being able to sleep at night. I think we are there. Already. So fun.

Tonight, after the bedtime fight, I looked at Dakota and said

“I don’t know what to do”

“Me either”

“I never know what to do”

“Me either”

Well, at least we are on the same page.

(big yawn) 

Parenting is this crazy rollercoaster of unexpected events. It's tears and laughter all mixed into one. It's good days and bad days, but as long as the good outweigh the bad you are doing a good job, right? I’m sticking with that for now.

(holding hands with his friend, super cute!)

A quote from one of our favorite movies keeps coming to mind during this stage of life. Its from Just Married. Haven’t seen it?? Go, right now, and buy it. Yes, buy it. You will want to watch it one million times, it's that funny.

Seriously.

Anyways. The quote is “You never see the hard days in a photo album, but those are the ones that get you from one happy snap shot to the next”

Love this. If you don’t think parenting is hard, to be blunt, you are doing it wrong. It should be hard. You should feel those growing pains. Your family is growing and expanding. You are learning and evolving. It’s life. Life is hard, but that’s what makes it great. Every hard day with O is a bonding day. It’s a day that I learn so much about him. That I show him that I will be here every hard day, every good day, every “normal” day. If I’m not there comforting him on the hard days, I don’t deserve the smiles on the good days. I don’t ask for help on the hard days, because it’s my job to be his mom. To be his comforter. To be his companion. To be his friend. Its my favorite.

Dakota and I have such a huge responsibility when it comes to raising O. I feel that constantly. We want him to be a good, kind, loving, strong, Godly man. We want him to be someone who always stands up for good and fights evil.  We want him to be passionate about life, follow his dreams. We want the world for him, what parent doesn’t?! Every night we pray over him. Pray for his future. Pray for his future family. For his future wife. Pray he will be a leader. Pray he will stand firm in Christ. Pray that we can help guide him appropriately through life.

Our love for O is more then I could ever have comprehended before having children. Having come to the conclusion I really didn’t want kids about a year ago, I am pleasantly surprised on how great it really is.

He has changed so much the last 3 months, I cant even imagine how much he will have change in another 3 months… it really is going by to quickly. We really are trying to cherish every moment with him. 

Confessions of a New Mom

Almost three months in and time has gone so fast yet so slow at the same time. It feels like Ollie has just always been apart of our family but we are still trying to figure each other out at the same time. We are blessed to have a good baby IMO. I know how hard some parents have it.  We struggle daily, but there are always laughs and giggles in between to make it all worth it. No one likes to talk about the struggles much though. When a new baby comes everyone just smiles and congratulates…. Which is great but being a parent is hard why doesn’t anyone talk about that aspect. Yes, babies are a blessing but they are hard. The first few weeks with O were hard. The nights were hard. Eating was hard. Breastfeeding was hard. The stress was hard. The transition is hard. Getting to know your baby is hard. Recovery is hard. You brought a new human into this world. You will not know their personality right away because it takes time. It is hard.

The struggle for us started the day we found out O was breech. We worked to hard to educate and prepare for a 100% natural birth. If you read our birth story you will find out we couldn’t of had anything further from a natural birth. We had an external aversion to have O flipped…. Then we failed our biophysical…. Then we were induced with Pit….then they broke my water….then I got more pit…. A shot of some drug….an epidural…and ultimately a c-section that I was not mentally prepared for.  The interventions began at 40 weeks and just kept coming. I am lucky to have not suffered from PPD, which was a huge concern for us. We made decisions to try and avoid getting into that situation such as encapsulation and we decided that Dakota would stay home the first week with me. Recovery from a c-section is no joke. The meds messed with me a lot. I would throw up a lot… and which with incisions that is no fun. Physically I was worn down, had little sleep, was on major pain pills, and was trying to breastfeed. I was not prepared for the mental side of recovery though. I was dealing with and still am dealing with extreme birth disappointment. No one talks about this. When you want nothing more then to give your child a natural entrance into the world and that is taken away and not possible you have to grieve over this.  It was something I couldn’t give my child. Every time I read birth stories, see a picture of a new baby born, I cry. I can’t help it. It is very emotional to know that is something that I wanted to badly to experience and may not ever be able to. Bonding with my baby was greatly affected due to my c-section. I was not able to hold my baby right away. We did not have skin-to-skin time like we were supposed to. My baby was brought into this world and spent the first moments of his life with strangers. My baby wanted to nurse but was not able to because I still needed stitched up. I know this effected how our breastfeeding relationship started.

My milk took about 4 days to “come in”. This was due to the meds and stress of my surgery. It did not come in like EVERYONE told me it would. No. It was slow. It was stressful. My baby cried a lot. We struggled a lot. O lost a pound of birth weight and everyone said, “oh, its normal for babies to lose weight. He will gain it quickly.” No. Wrong. 6 weeks later we finally made it to birth weight. This was hard. This was emotional, but I strongly believe that breast milk is so much better for babies so I fought hard for this relationship. I am lucky to have a Dr that was fully supportive of me trying. I NEVER once supplemented with formula even though specialists suggested it… I just constantly nursed my baby and pumped and supplemented with what I pumped and prayed. Prayed every time I tried to feed my baby. Prayed that the lord would meet his needs because I knew no matter what I did I could not will this to work it was the Lord that could do this. When we finally gained the weight back it was a relief but our relationship is still not easy. On top of my milk coming in slow I have discovered O has a lip tie. Which causes nursing to be more difficult. Which I know is another reason for our slow weight gain.  We see a specialist in December, until then we will work at it. My baby still nurses all the time. He wants to nurse about every hour, for about 20 mins or so. Due to his lip tie he can’t hold a pacifier in his mouth so I am his pacifier. I know he doesn’t always want to eat every hour but he wants to suck. He nurses for comfort. He nurses to bond. He nurses to eat. I made the decision to nurse on demand and that’s what I am going to do. It is hard. We don’t go very many places. I nurse before we go somewhere and nurse usually when we get somewhere. It’s hard to pump when he eats every hour. But nursing makes my baby feel secure. It comforts him. For that, I will offer up my body every min of every day to feel that bond with my baby. Our bond was interrupted with my c-section so I am so thankful we are making this work. It is hard but so worth it. So, word of advice, encourage nursing moms. We need a culture that promotes trusting women and their bodies. Our bodies are so much stronger then we believe. Every time someone questions my nursing I will defend it to the death. I question myself enough, I will always do what I think is best for my baby. We need to encourage moms/parents not question them.  I am lucky to have a mom that successfully breastfed all her babies, and a grandma that did the time. They are my heroes and were such a support. Always encouraging me. I am blessed to have them in my life.

Our routine is slowing getting into place. Daytime is still a mess. I usually lay down with O from 1-3 and he sleeps off in and on and nurses. This is usually the only way I can get him to sleep during the day. He gets super grumpy though if we don’t do this because he NEEDS the sleep he just doesn’t like sleeping during the day. I am yet to be able to get him to sleep without holding him in my arms. I will not let him “cry it out”. It doesn’t work for our family. Slowly I know he wont always want me to hold him so for the time being I will snuggle with him and enjoy our down time.  (I get nothing done during the day if you haven’t noticed. I’m either feeding him or holding him as he sleeps. Oh well, the housework can wait for me to bond with my babe)

Nighttime is better. He goes to bed at 7 now every night. We give him a bottle at night. (I pump while he sleeps) Dakota does night time most of the time. It’s their time to bond. We do jammies, swaddle, sound machine, and bottle. Usually nighttime is super easy. He has slept in his own room in his crib since he was two weeks old. Weird kid… he hated sleeping with us! Ha-ha The first night we put him in his own crib he slept so much better! I am glad that this part was easy for us. He was sleeping from then until about 5 in the morning which was glorious but that hasn’t lasted. He usually gets up once or twice in the night now but for only about 10-15mins and right back to sleep. I decided when he was first born that every time he gets up at night I would use it as an opportunity to pray over him. I have done this ever since. It is a sweet time and some nights I guess he just needs extra prayers J He will usually sleep a total of 12 hours at night. Praise Jesus. Dakota and I get some time together at night too, which is amazing. Although, we live in a very very tiny house…..every room EXCEPT the laundry room shares a wall with O’s room. We have to tip toe around…. We watch Netflix on our Ipad in bed because the TV wakes up O. He is a light sleeper. It’s a fun, sweet time in life though. We always laugh and say some day we will look back at hiding in our room with snacks and Netflix and miss this time.

Now for work. I graduated in May. I have student loans. I can’t be a stay at home mom forever. I never thought I would love staying home with O so much. I love spending time with him. Playing with him. Even though it’s hard, most days I don’t shower, or eat much, I love every min of it. I love watching him grown and learn. I am enjoying this time so much because I know it wont last forever. I have started looking slowing. I know where I want to apply first. It has been recommended to me to run about 10 miles a week before apply. I am trying to work on this. My core is completely shot. Not only did my abs separate from growing a toddler in my belly, my abs were cut through as well. I am still not able to sit up without using my arms. I have no ab strength. So, I am working on that as well. Physically I am not where I need to be to apply for these jobs yet. So, we are working on that. I am very passionate about what I want to do but it will just take some time to get there. We struggle financial but the Lord has always provided. Every month it really is a miracle that we pay all our bills and have money for groceries, but we do. I know that right now I am supposed to be home with O. In a couple months that may not be true. I have no real plan. We are praying for this. We are used to struggling financial. Paying our bills is all that we need. We don’t need extra money. It is not about the possessions. Taking care of our baby is our number one priority. We clothe diaper and breastfeed so he is not costing us anything at this moment. Until I feel called back to work though, I will spend time with O. I will work on the physical things for when the Lord releases me from this period of time in my life. I do not feel at peace about leaving him yet though. We are praying for that peace to come once it is time for me to return to work.  Luckily, I have my mom that has offered to watch O. He seems to really enjoy her so I feel 100% comfortable leaving him with her when then time comes.

Just to put it our there, my husband is an amazing dad. I don’t think dads get enough credit sometimes. As soon as he gets home he washes his hands and holds O. He can’t wait to spend time with him. I am so excited to watch their relationship grown. Kot is an amazing husband and support to me every day as well. He just is awesome.

Being a new mom has so many struggles. It’s hard. I never knew something could be so hard, yet so rewarding. This is the hardest job ever, but it’s my favorite. Some days we cry, some days we laugh but I am thankful for every day I get to spend with O. All moms out there are super heroes to me. I have always been a feminist and I can fully understand what it takes to be a Mom now. So, you are all doing a great job. Keep up the hard work. Every mom is so different. Every baby is so different. There is no right way to raise a child. We all do our best. I may be a hippie mom that wants to implement attachment-parenting ideals and you may be a mainstream parent. So what. We should all encourages each other.  Women can be so hard on each other. Its time to just support each other. So, good job moms. I think you rock.